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Monday, February 18, 2013/ 12:18 AM Back to Sydney  I went back to Sydney reaching on valentines day, quarreling with my sister before leaving, no family to send me off but thankfully for a friend, and no boyfriend to pick me up. Trivial things, things that can't be undone, I make the option to look over it now. Like how my new wallet got a pen mark on it now, and it was so expensive, I hardly make such purchases. Heart broken :'( It was a dinner at Baia, the Italian at darling harbour, food did not taste good there and was definitely overrated. I guess that is for choosing a restaurant with a nice ambience only. No sweet pictures! Because boyfriend doesnt want to take with me even on vday, really sad. Roamed about for a bit to Daiso and its just packing and cleaning for me afterwards. The condition was really bad for the toilet especially but I am glad I got everything done in a night! The best person is to depend on yourself. Sometimes, hearing things that are definitely untrue but trying to shake off the blame and show oneself in a positive light really make me frustrated. Half heartedness does not mean everything. I mostly slept away the 15th, woke up only for a dinner for my favorite pasta in the local area, and an interview for a job. Yay for free ice cream, drinks, waffles and crepes! 16th was my friend's wedding, I was simply really confused whether to bring gifts, what to wear, especially around churchmates. Struggled soooo long with it, ended up with no gifts although I intended to do up a card with a friend, and dark clothing when most of them wore frilly white, pink, coral dresses. The groom was 21 and the bride (my friend) was around 25/26? But they are reallly good together sometimes I really wonder if I can ever find the right one, since I am already of marriagable age but havent found someone I can be obsessed about XD Looking at the couple's parents with them made me feel how blessed they actually are, and a bit down as I got reminded of my own parents. How I wish my parents can also be here on my wedding day. Afterwards was some roaming about the city with my boyfriend, and dinner with our friend peter ma who has been recently into gyming, as reflected on his thighs and arms. Maybe my resolve is not strong enough in getting fatter. Hopefully I can take out some time to gym a bit every week and stay healthy! As my mum would like :) And now there's free fruits at my new job. Later in the night was mahjong with andrew luk, calvin chu and terry. My incredible luck was at play again, but I do always remember luck only is not dependable enough. Continuous win for quite a few rounds, actually this always have something to do with moods and psychology. I remembered the time previously how I won about 7-8 turns continuously until I decided to give my seat up to let someone else play. I am not good at this yet, but I will do my best to learn it and gain more experience! Social games like drinking games, card games, icebreakers are all rather lame games to me, but definitely not mahjong :) Won about $30 but I used it to treat Maurice's and Roger's lunch today. Sharing my happiness! My first day of work started today, really nervous as I have not done waitressing before. So many things to remember! But I could see my improvement closer to the end of the day, merely takes experience I guess? Hopefully I can be much better before uni starts so it doesnt put too much pressure on me. It was the waiter's pad which was quite troublesome, other than that it is fine. And I hate cleaning.. so much to clean! Table tops, table bases, chairs, sofas, mop floor, broom floor, counters, fold stuff, keep stuff, inside, outside..but I should not complain. Guys' job's much worse too. My first customer was actually my friend whom I have not seen for a long time, because she was my ex's sister's friend, and also my classmate at a point in time, really surprised. And I got my first visit from my friend from Project Hope, Adam, as his friend was someone working at the store, and apparently part of PH's marketing team too, just that I could not recognise. I made a blunder during an order for 7 elderly people, 1 wrong ice cream and extra order. May that not happen anymore XD Because one of the guys was kind enough to quickly go over and make the extra payment. I rrealllly need to be more prudent! Hate the waiter's pad... Home feeling so tired, but that is what I get for stacking thing after another. At least I would not have to face insomnia, only to stare at the ceiling and think of what I should not think of. I slept so much lesser than before ever since December, usually I have to sleep 12 hours a day and can only be active for 12 hours. Now, its less than 8 hours a day usually, especially before I returned to Australia. I have a tendency to pace between sleep and reality when I am tired, getting stuck in my body, or sometimes said to be 'sat on by a ghost'. Ever since my mum passed away, I only had it once which was a few days after my mum was gone, but now it's zero. Maybe my mum is protecting me?:) Hopefully my application for the leadership program will also be smooth for it to be complete in one semester! Previous |
